Extending

I panicked and flustered and cried and moaned lots yesterday - and got my deadline extended by a week.  Which is good (and bad?).  I cant be in the same place on friday - so am taking different tack.  I have to plan and be in control.  I stayed at home today.  Got up early and cleaned, bought a roll of brown paper, then started working at 9 o'clock, on the top of the brown roll of paper.  I will keep going down it.  Never cutting.  I allowed myself to eat and to leave the house - such luxury.  Tomorrow i will take a cheque to the bank - this i never think i have time to do - and maybe even go for a swim when i get to that flustered point.

I worked out some and justified to myself a bit what i am doing.  I have another new idea, and am fitting that in (an amazing realization of simplicity - i need to add numbers!).  I decided i wouldn't type a script today but try and be ready to type one. But now, right now, sat in a cafe - i feel nearly ready - i cant work on something that isn't there. 

I decided the beginning is slow, the middle is a mess, the end hasn't enough emotions.  And I just need to type it and try to complete it again.  I am getting somewhere, really and have to stop doubting it.  This might not be the most amazing film in the world, but it will be mine. And it will be brilliant really, as long as i just get on with it NOW.

Keep going positively.  Stop doubting.  Be excited.  Be productive.